As we grow older, we fight lesser. Gah, why do I sound like an old woman? Or rather why am I making myself sound like one. I keep telling people that I'm in this phase that is call, or so called, mid-life crisis. I'm not exaggerating, I literally feel restless and lifeless and.. Old. I know I'm still too young to be in this mid-life emergency thing and to many, I mean really many many, I'm just a young naive stupid girl, but I can't help it if I feel sick and tired and bored of this super routine and borrrrrrrrring working life! Honestly, if it is not for the... Too good to be true(ironically, it is real though) pay, I'd have quit like, after the first month. While it is already my 3rd and a half month here. How I wish July will be here and I'd be carefree as hell, finally enjoying my long overdue well deserved shorrrrt break. So i digress(whats new) Anyway, I kinda miss those petty, senseless, silly fights that kids used to have. I mean now nobody fights anymore. No one. We don't go through the whole cycle of fight, cold war, kiss-and-make-up phase. I don't know, maybe it's because I have a secret fetish for war, I always think that friendships without fighting is not strong enough. Like if you haven't been through the downside and hardship together, always riding the high road, how'd you know how tight this relationship is? But people don't ever fight anymore, well at least people around me. Not at all. Everything is so peaceful its boring and redundant. The older we get, the higher the chances for us to skip the actual kiss-and-make-up period. Yeah, maybe people fight, oh yeah they do. But after the fight and maybe a little while of a cold war, we go back into pretending the fight and whatsafter did not happened and act like everything is fine, which its not. I get why people dislike confrontations, trust me, I do. But does running away from the problem help in any way? Nope, I don't think so. How ever long can we run away from those resentment? Why can't people just talk it out? Why do we choose the easy way out that does no good to us in the long run? Maybe we are afraid. Afraid of losing, afraid of being the party that is unreasonable, afraid of confrontations, afraid of people taking sides and going against you, afraid of.... Uncertainties that follow. Yeah I'm too, scared of uncertainties and new things. Like the whole new university thing, a brand new start again. Although I'm so sick and tired of this mundane life, sometimes I still wonder if I'm ready to leap into the new world yet. Oh well oh.
